July 10th, 2009

Trek: doctor not n00b (theanswer42)

What am I?

Something my grandparents instilled in me from a very young age was the need to be something. My grandfather was a lawyer. My uncles, a doctor and an accountant. Even my grandmother is a 'homemaker' as befit her generation. The presumption being that you study, you graduate, you get a title and that becomes an achievement in and of itself, and it defines your self-worth for the rest of your life.

Because no matter who my uncle works for, or whether he works at all, or even what he ends up doing later in life, he will always be an M.D.

As I began to show more of an aptitude towards Humanities, they were hoping I'd become an English teacher or something along those lines.

And yet here I am, and what am I? "I work in billing" doesn't make me an accountant. Doesn't make me anything at all. Just like "I work at McDonald's" doesn't make one a waiter, or a chef. Is my job not important? Oh, it is. I make sure my company gets paid for its services. That's important. But it's a job. It's not a career. It doesn't help me as an individual.

I write. Does that make me a writer? Probably. But I can't call myself an author until I've finished something. Even before it sells, if I'm trying to sell it, I'm an author.

Perhaps learning music is another attempt at becoming 'something'.

And perhaps following the little Celtic band that could across two states is a proxy for the religious experience I'm unable to achieve with actual religion. But that's a ramble for another entry and I'm sure pop culture sociologists have debated that one since the birth of Elvis Presley.

Okay, I'm going to give myself 20 more minutes to write about Channon Grey and his little wolf pack, then shower and some practise before work.

Gott sei dank es ist Freitag! (Or something similar. I'm trying for 'linguist' next.)
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Writer's Block: Economizing

If you had to tighten your budget (or already have), what would be the easiest thing to cut?
You mock me, LiveJournal! *fistshake*

WoW was really the only thing left before food. I stopped buying new clothes months ago except for those two shirts on sale a couple of months ago. Now I go to the gym so I can keep wearing the same trousers.

So I cancelled WoW. I miss it every so often, but then I busy myself with other things. And I know I'll go back.

I gave up yogurt. I figure I get my dairy from milk and cheese.

The hardest thing to cut out so far in the 'food' category, has been my morning French Vanilla Hazelnut coffee from Billy D's by work. Coffee is my comfort food. Luckily I get a free supply of the good shit from PR, but I took great comfort from going into Billy D's with its super friendly staff, mixing my own flavoured coffee, and enjoying it at my desk at my leisure. *sigh* Maybe in August.

Mai bubble, let me show you it

So apparently something bad happens in Torchwood: Children of Earth. Thank you all who have kept the spoilers behind cuts, though the flailing and gnashing of teef is almost worse.

Whatever. I'm still going to thothscribe81's on Sunday, and there will be alcohol. And there will be lulz. And if we cry, we cry together. And if it's as bad as y'all are making it sound, there's always Merlin. *shrug* *is old enough to know fandoms come and go* *is also fickle and has waited long enough for s3 to kinda be over it* *is also going through tough personal times and has worse things to worry about* *and in saying that is totally not ragging on anybody who's upset, will probably also be upset on Sunday* *and then will have to go back to work on Monday and that's even more depressing*

I'm hungry. *goes forage for crumbs*